I met someone in the grocery store yesterday that was my neighbor for many years until I moved away almost a year ago. She asked me how I was and I said, "I'm good". I almost always answer that way, but I realized for the first time in almost four years I was telling the truth...that's hard for me to admit. It's not that I have not felt good in that period of time, however, it was like saying "I'm good" and feeling like I was choking on the silent "but" that would follow...If I was honest I would have said "I'm good, but my heart still aches" or "I'm good, but I still can't believe this has happened to me" or....you get the idea. It felt good to be telling the truth and not have a silent "but" on the tip of my tongue.
The 'buts' in my life are the shadows that give the color more contrast and make them seem brighter somehow...the 'buts' are not bad (although they have felt hard), they're part of my story, part of the depth of my experience in this life...I am grateful that they have faded a bit and let the good clear, easy color shine through in a life I am creating...no "buts" about it :)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Productive Day!!
Well...I got a lot done today. I went for a run, mowed the lawn, planted beets, sweet peas, and sunflowers (oh ya!). I cleaned up dog poop, changed the furnace filter, vacuumed 2 full floors, scrubbed 3 bathrooms, changed the air filter in my car and switched out 6 winter tires (2 more will happen when they get put on rims later this week) and gave myself a manicure!! Here's the best news, after all that my nails still look good- seeing as I had a not so brilliant plan to paint my nails half way through all my activities!? I had to change the tires in medical gloves, to stay true to my 'girlness' and my nail polish, but it all worked out-phew! I love days like this!!
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
My headboard on my bed!
Ok, I know it's a very bad photo, but you get the idea. I love the headboard. I bought the bed off of Kijiji and it had it's own headboard and I was trying to figure out how to saw it off (without making a huge mess!?) So one night I decided I would turn the bed backwards-the 'footboard' you see in the photo is actually the headboard of the Ikea, Malm, bed. It's not perfect, but it works and no sawing involved!!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
You know it's a bad sign when you have forgotten the password to sign in to edit your own blog! I promise to be more on top of things for my 3 dedicated followers (you know who you are) in the upcoming year.
I have been thinking about my eating habits as of late and what I want to change about them in order to become more healthy and in control of what I consume. I have been a very healthy eater for the past years, but the last few months I have 'fallen off the wagon' so to speak, so I am implementing some new things to help me get back on. I have come up with 5 things that help me to eat well.
1. Drink 2 cups of water before each meal. I literally have a big cup (16 oz) by my sink, I fill it and guzzle it back. This helps me eat less and I feel full way longer after the meal
2. Find something to chew on. I like to eat nachos, Doritos, chips-I like crunchy things. I even, apparently, have a deep affection for caramel popcorn. My daughter brought it home from work and I finally had to have my son hide it as it was sweet and crunchy and it began to control me :). Soooo now I eat celery or brocolli, with dip (who are we kidding-I'm no saint!) and if I can start eating that before I am too hungry during my craving times, it helps me to not crave the junk food.
3. Bake something sweet. Make something healthy-lots of fibre, apple sauce instead of oil or butter, splenda instead of sugar and enjoy it! I have lots of recipes-I can post some if you so desire...
4. Make guilt free hot chocolate. I love chocolate and I live in Canada (bbrrrrr) so in the afternoon when the chocolate craving hits, I make hot chocolate. Warm up the milk, add a teaspoon or 2 of cocoa and some splenda-Voila! Yum! Sweet and filled with protein so it serves as a great snack!
5. Chew gum. Chewing gum helps distract you from the need to be eating at all times (okay maybe that's only me-but it is the honest truth). Try it! Plus your breath will always be minty fresh which also lessens your desire to eat just like not wanting to eat just after brushing your teeth
Bonus... sit and eat. Enjoy, savor and be grateful for each mouthful, put your fork down in between bites...it all makes a difference
I have been thinking about my eating habits as of late and what I want to change about them in order to become more healthy and in control of what I consume. I have been a very healthy eater for the past years, but the last few months I have 'fallen off the wagon' so to speak, so I am implementing some new things to help me get back on. I have come up with 5 things that help me to eat well.
1. Drink 2 cups of water before each meal. I literally have a big cup (16 oz) by my sink, I fill it and guzzle it back. This helps me eat less and I feel full way longer after the meal
2. Find something to chew on. I like to eat nachos, Doritos, chips-I like crunchy things. I even, apparently, have a deep affection for caramel popcorn. My daughter brought it home from work and I finally had to have my son hide it as it was sweet and crunchy and it began to control me :). Soooo now I eat celery or brocolli, with dip (who are we kidding-I'm no saint!) and if I can start eating that before I am too hungry during my craving times, it helps me to not crave the junk food.
3. Bake something sweet. Make something healthy-lots of fibre, apple sauce instead of oil or butter, splenda instead of sugar and enjoy it! I have lots of recipes-I can post some if you so desire...
4. Make guilt free hot chocolate. I love chocolate and I live in Canada (bbrrrrr) so in the afternoon when the chocolate craving hits, I make hot chocolate. Warm up the milk, add a teaspoon or 2 of cocoa and some splenda-Voila! Yum! Sweet and filled with protein so it serves as a great snack!
5. Chew gum. Chewing gum helps distract you from the need to be eating at all times (okay maybe that's only me-but it is the honest truth). Try it! Plus your breath will always be minty fresh which also lessens your desire to eat just like not wanting to eat just after brushing your teeth
Bonus... sit and eat. Enjoy, savor and be grateful for each mouthful, put your fork down in between bites...it all makes a difference
Sunday, August 8, 2010
great poem
Our Deepest Fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
Marianne Williamson
Saturday, July 31, 2010
My House!!!
Here's my new house. I move in a month. We have lived in our house for over 12 years and we have WAY too much stuff and a ton of work to do in order to get this one ready to put on the market. I am not sure how we will get it all done. Nevertheless, the new house is a wonderful, cheery blessing and I look forward to our new life there.
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