I'm good

I met someone in the grocery store yesterday that was my neighbor for many years until I moved away almost a year ago. She asked me how I was and I said, "I'm good". I almost always answer that way, but I realized for the first time in almost four years I was telling the truth...that's hard for me to admit. It's not that I have not felt good in that period of time, however, it was like saying "I'm good" and feeling like I was choking on the silent "but" that would follow...If I was honest I would have said "I'm good, but my heart still aches" or "I'm good, but I still can't believe this has happened to me" or....you get the idea. It felt good to be telling the truth and not have a silent "but" on the tip of my tongue.

The 'buts' in my life are the shadows that give the color more contrast and make them seem brighter somehow...the 'buts' are not bad (although they have felt hard), they're part of my story, part of the depth of my experience in this life...I am grateful that they have faded a bit and let the good clear, easy color shine through in a life I am creating...no "buts" about it :)

Productive Day!!

Well...I got a lot done today. I went for a run, mowed the lawn, planted beets, sweet peas, and sunflowers (oh ya!). I cleaned up dog poop, changed the furnace filter, vacuumed 2 full floors, scrubbed 3 bathrooms, changed the air filter in my car and switched out 6 winter tires (2 more will happen when they get put on rims later this week) and gave myself a manicure!! Here's the best news, after all that my nails still look good- seeing as I had a not so brilliant plan to paint my nails half way through all my activities!? I had to change the tires in medical gloves, to stay true to my 'girlness' and my nail polish, but it all worked out-phew! I love days like this!!

I saw this and just loved it! It's how I try to live my life...I hope this is how you live too...

My headboard on my bed!

Ok, I know it's a very bad photo, but you get the idea. I love the headboard. I bought the bed off of Kijiji and it had it's own headboard and I was trying to figure out how to saw it off (without making a huge mess!?) So one night I decided I would turn the bed backwards-the 'footboard' you see in the photo is actually the headboard of the Ikea, Malm, bed. It's not perfect, but it works and no sawing involved!!